Six Degrees Of Inner Turbulence
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I. Overture (6:50)
(instrumental)
II. About To Crash (5:50)
- John Petrucci
She can't stop pacing
She never felt so alive
Her thoughts are racing
Set on overdrive
It takes a village
This she knows is true
They're expecting her
And she's got work to do
Degree 1 : Seorang wanita yang menderita bipolar disorder, penyakit perubahan dan perputaran mood, hypomanic dan manic depression.
Dalam bait ini dia berada dalam keadaan hypomania yang ditandai oleh sikap yang enerjik, penigkatan kreativitas, terus berpikir, terus berkarya. over imaginatif.
Sepertinya dia adalah seorang seniman yang karyanya sangat ditunggu-tunggu oleh masyarakat.
He helplessly stands by
It's meaningless to try
As he rubs his red-rimmed eyes
He says I've never seen her get this bad
Even though she seems so high
He knows that she can't fly
And when she falls out of the sky
He'll be standing by
Seseorang, mungkin ayahnya, selalu menjaganya, mengawasi tingkah lakunya
walaupun kurang tidur, ayahnya selalu mengawasi,
karena ayahnya tau suatu saat dia akan melewati masa hypomanicnya dan memasuki masa manic depression
She was raised in a small midwestern town
By a charming and eccentric loving father
She was praised as the perfect teenage girl
And everyone thought highly of her
And she tried everyday
With endless drive
To make the grade
Then one day
She woke up to find
The perfect girl
Had lost her mind
Dia adalah orang yang berprestasi, dan menjadi idola dalam masyarakat
dengan hypomanicnya dia terus bekerja keras setiap harinya, mendapatkan nilai yang bagus
namun suatu hari dia tiba-tiba menjadi depresi.
Once barely taking a break
Now she sleeps the days away
She helplessly stands by
It's meaningless to try
All she wants to do is cry
No one ever knew she was so sad
Cause even though she gets so high
And thinks that she can fly
She will fall out of the sky
DEngan tiba-tiba dia memasuki masa manic depression
dia hanya ingin menangis. tanpa orang mengetahui keadaannya
But in the face of misery
She found hopefulness
Feeling better
She had weathered
This depression
Dalam depresinya dia mulai membaik.
terlihat bahwa dia menderita bipolar disorder II, dimana masa hypomanicnya lebih banyak dibanding masa manic depressionnya
Much to her advantage
She resumed her frantic pace
Boundless power
Midnight hour
She enjoyed the race
Dia kembali ke masa hypomanic, dan kembali lagi ke sisi agresifnya
kembali bekerja, kembali berkarya
III. War Inside My Head (2:08)
- Mike Portnoy
Napalm showers
Showed the cowards
We weren't there to mess around
Through heat exhaustion
And mind distortion
A military victory mounted on innocent ground
Degree 2 : Seorang bekas tentara menderita post traumatic stress disorder.
ia merasakan flashback jaman dia terjun ke medan perang
Hearing voices from miles away
Saying things never said
Seeing shadows in the light of the day
Waging a war inside my head
War inside my head
Setelah ia pulang, sampai sekarang pun dia masih dihantui oleh perang
Suara-suara dan bayangan visual masih melekat di ingatannya
Years and years of
Bloodshed and warfare
Our mission was only to get in and kill
A free vacation
Of palm trees and shrapnel
Trading innocence for permanent psychotic hell
Kehidupan dia selama perang vietnam, menebar teror, membunuh siapapun yang menghadapinya.
Hearing voices from miles away
Saying things never said
Seeing shadows in the light of the day
Waging a war inside my head
Feeling strangers staring my way
Reading minds never read
Tasting danger with each word I say
Waging a war inside my...
sampai sekarang pun dia masih dihantui oleh perang
Suara-suara dan bayangan visual masih melekat di ingatannya
IV. The Test That Stumped Them All (5:02)
- Mike Portnoy
Standing in the darkness
Waiting for the light
The smell of pure adrenaline
Burning in the night
Random blinding flashes
Aiming at the stage
Intro tape begins to roll
Igniting sonic rage
Degree 3 : Seorang musisi yang siap tampil didepan orang ramai. perasaannya bergejolak
Lampu-lampu panggung menghiasi, intro musik dimulai dan suasana mulai meriah
Still they keep me between these hollow walls
Hoping to find in me
The answers to the test that stumped them all
Namun itu hanya bayangan seseorang yang menderita schizophrenia, dia sering berimajinasi dan berhalusinasi.
padahal dia hanya berada di dalam rumah sakit jiwa dan sedang melalui tes yang dilakukan dokter
"The boy is just simply crazy
Suffering from delusions
We honestly think that maybe
He might need and institution
He lives in a world of fiction
And really could use some help
We have just the place to fix him
To save him from himself"
Perbincangan dokter-dokter tentang hasil tesnya.
Dimana dia divonis mengalami halusinasi berada dalam dunia fiksi
Mereka terys mencoba untuk menyelamatkannya
Curled up in the darkness
Searching for the light
The smell of stale sweat and shit
Steaming through the night
Random urine testing
Pills red, pink and blue
Counseling and therapy
Providing not a clue
Still the keep me between these hollow walls
Hoping to find in me
The answers to the test that stumped them all
Para dokter masih terus berusaha mendapatkan jawaban.
Mereka melakukan banyak tes, memberikan banyak obat-obatan
melakukan terapi dan konsultasi.
namun tetap tidak mendapatkan hasil
"We can't seem to find the answers
He seemed such a clear cut case
We cannot just let him leave here
And put all this work to waste
Why don't we try shock treatment
It really might do some help
We have just the tools to fix him
To save him from himself"
Para dokter masih belum mau menyerah dan menyia2kan usaha mereka.
Mereka pun mencoba shock treatmen untuk menyelamatkannya
V. Goodnight Kiss (6:17)
- Mike Portnoy
Goodnight kiss in your nightgown
Lavender in your bed
So innocent as you lie down
Sweet dreams that run through your head
Are you lonely without Mommy's love?
I want you to know I'd die for that moment
You're just a poor girl
Afraid of this cruel world
Taken away from it all
Degree 4 : Seorang ibu membaringkan tubuh anaknya yang baru meninggal dalam tempat tidur.
memberikan ciuman malam terakhirnya.
Dia membayangkan kerinduan anaknya. masa-masa anaknya merindukannya
ingin kembali dia merasakannya.
anaknya hanya menjadi korban kekejaman dunia
It's been 5 years to the day and
My tainted blood's still the same
I can't help acting this way and
Those bastard doctors are gonna pay
I'm so lonely without baby's love
I want you to know I'd die for one more moment
I'm just a poor girl
Afraid of this cruel world
Taken away from it all
Sudah 5 tahun dan sang ibu masih penuh kesedihan. Dia menderita post-partum depression
Dia merasa kebahagiaannya telah direnggut oleh dokter yang gagal menyelamatkan anaknya
dia menuduh dokter-dokter itu melakukan malpraktek
VI. Solitary Shell (5:47)
- John Petrucci
He seemed no different from the rest
Just a healthy normal boy
His mama always did her best
And he was daddy's pride and joy
He learned to walk and talk on time
But never cared much to be held
And steadily he would decline
Into his solitary shell
Degree 5 : Seorang pria yang normal, tumbuh dengan biasanya, menjadi kebanggaan orang tuanya
namun lambat laun ia mulai mengalami degradasi mental dan menderita autisme
dimana dia menghindari kontak sosial dengan bersembunyi dalam dunianya sendiri
As a boy he was considered somewhat odd
Kept to himself most of the time
He would daydream in and out of his own world
But in every other way he was fine
Dia mulai dianggap aneh oleh orang lain, hanya sibuk dengan diri sendiri
bermimpi dalam dunianya, namun dia baik-baik saja
He's a Monday morning lunatic
Disturbed from time to time
Lost within himself
In his solitary shell
A temporary catatonic
Madman on occasion
When will he break out
Of his solitary shell
Dia mengalami peledakan tiba-tiba,
menggila mendadak.
orang pun berharap dia secepatnya keluar dari dunianya
He struggled to get through his day
He was helplessly behind
He poured himself onto the page
Writing for hours at a time
As a man he was a danger to himself
Fearful and sad most of the time
He was drifting in and out of sanity
But in every other way he was fine
Dia menjadi tertinggal dengan dunia luar
karena kesibukanya di dunianya sendiri
Kadang dia normal kadang dia menjadi gila.
He's a Monday morning lunatic
Disturbed from time to time
Lost within himself
In his solitary shell
A momentary maniac
With casual delusions
When will he be let out
Of his solitary shell
Dia mengalami peledakan tiba-tiba,
menggila mendadak.
orang pun berharap dia secepatnya keluar dari dunianya
VII. About To Crash (Reprise) (4:04)
- John Petrucci
I'm alive again
The darkness far behind me
I'm invincible
Despair will never find me
I feel strong
I've got a new sense of elation
Boundless energy
Euphoria fixation
Kembali ke Degree 1 : sekarang dalam sudut pandang sang penderita.
dia kembali ke masa hypomanicnya, merasa kuat dan penuh energi
Still it's hard to just get by
It seems so meaningless to try
When all I want to do is cry
Who would ever know I felt so sad
Even though I get so high
I know that I will never fly
And when I fall out of the sky
Who'll be standing by
Will you be standing by
Sepertinya dia sudah bisa menyadari secara langsung keadaannya
dimana dia akan memasuki masa manic depression.
dan dia mengharapkan seseorang yang akan menolongnya
VIII. Losing Time / Grand Finale (6:00)
- John Petrucci
She dresses in black everyday
She keeps her hair simple and plain
She never wears makeup
But no one would care if she did anyway
She doesn't recall yesterday
Faces seem twisted and strange
But she always wakes up
Only to find she'd been miles away
Degree 6 : seorang wanita yang menderita dissociative identity disorder atau Multiple Personality Disorder
dia tidak memiliki banyak teman.
Dia cenderung mengalami amnesia.
terlihat dari dia selalu bangun tanpa menyadari apa yang terjadi.
ini disebabkan oleh perubahan personalitinya secara tidak langsung
Absence of awareness
Losing time
A lapse of perception
Losing time
Ketidak sadaran dia, dan penyakit yang dia alami
membuat dia kehilangan waktu dalam hidupnya
Wanting to escape
She had created a way to survive
She learned to detach from herself
A behavior that kept her alive
Untuk mengatasinya dia membentuk alternate personaliti secara sadar.
untuk melepaskan dari dirinya.
Hope in the face of our human distress
Helps us to understand the turbulence deep inside
That takes hold of our lives
Shame and disgrace over mental unrest
Keeps us from saving those we love
The grace within our hearts
And the sorrow in our souls
Bagian ini menjelaskan bahwa kita sadar akan penyakit jiwa yang diderita manusia
diharapkan kita menjadi lebih mengerti keadaan pikiran kita
untuk menyelamatkan orang yang kita sayangi
Deception of fame --> The Test That Stumped Them All
Vengeance of war --> War Inside My Head
Lives torn apart --> Goodnight Kiss
Losing oneself --> Losing Time
Spiraling down --> About To Crash
Feeling the walls closing in --> Solitary Shell
A journey to find
The answers inside
Our illusive mind
Sebuah perjalanan menelusuri dalam pikiran kita
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by IDTFC
